Paranoia has set in. I find myself caught in a rhythmic time checking cycle. Its only saturday, but a voice rattles in my head telling me otherwise. "Am I going to be late?"
My watch was left at home by mistake. I raised my arm and peered down at my wrist; no watch. Other than being grateful for the invention of the handphone, I noticed the distinct light banding on my wrist - The outline of my watch.
"How long has it been since I've taken it off?" I couldn't live without it. A twenty five dollar Casio watch has actually taken control of my life. I've gotten so caught up with things that the things I love have already been lost.
For the first time in a millions years, I set foot into an aquarium again. Ah.. Its good to be back.. I spent $11 for another Red betta, which I felt pretty good about. (It was originally $13. Haha)
Dance for me?
[ Mosh the Toemato ] 10:50:00 PM
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Friday, June 08, 2007
I've probably never stepped out of my comfort zone for the largest part of my life. The army hasn't exactly been the most trying period. After all, each weekend promises visits back to my comfy bed, piping hot meals and my fish tank.
Yes, i've been overseas somewhat. But i haven't travelled alone - I mean alone. Could this be a turning point in my life, again? I've seen what studying abroad can do for one's life. It changed my brother from a computer obsessive slob to a sporty and caring person.
I'm pretty apprehensive about anything new. If life could just fall into place for me, whilst I lay down dreaming of bigger things to come to me. I should just snap out of this.
Can I cope even if things go right? What's the stakes on this one? Everything.